Tara B

b.1980

Art began for me as quiet and sneaky as a creeping fog.  It was the way I found to isolate/hide from the noise of life. I am an abuse survivor.  I am mentally ill.  I broke laws and took drugs....until the right combination and dosages of meds, years of therapy and a few support groups brought me back to the living.  I became a musician and toured in bands internationally with wildly varying degrees of success. After settling in the Bay Area I started to draw this series you see.  I surround myself with people, and I chase isolation.  I found it in a drawing There is the quiet and now I could make it myself, just by doing this one thing.  This thing that results in pieces of paper that please me.  At first, it was not a thing to share.  It was for my eyes only.  My isolation - who would volunteer to share that?  But there are so many, someone was bound to see whether I wanted that or not.

Most of these are about capturing the quiet, the isolation.  I crave it, complete with the ringing in the ears and unconscious clenching of leg muscles.  Life was never pretty, and even if there is a beauty in it, it hurts.  Which is what some of these drawings are doing and I hope that they are not pretty, or good.  But I hope that you can read those lines, about something not pretty, that might only be there because of the pain.

Among other things, Tara Circus Barnes is a musician, an artist, and K-12 curriculum consultant based in Oakland, California.   

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